求翻译：如果可以重新选择，我不想回来，我很难过会到家里看到自己的家人，是这样对待自己的亲人的，上班不想去，下班又怕回去，内心的挣扎与无赖啊，想过哭，可哭过，过后还是没有改变这一切，难道只是让自己心里好过点吗？如果在有一点我不在属于这座城市，我一定不会正眼看一次你，2012这一年外面有很多的工作等着我，我一次又一次的回绝了。我不知道，难道是我在报恩吗？还是想给一次亲人的机会!是什么意思？

If you can re-select, I do not want to come back, I'm sorry to the house to see their families, treat their loved ones to go to work do not want to go to work afraid to go back, inner struggle with rogue thought about crying, can be crying, or after no change in all of this, it just so that my heart

If you can re-select, and I do not want to come back, I am very sorry to see that their family home, is the way to treat yourself, loved ones do not want to go to work, go back, and they are afraid that after hours of struggling hearts with rogue, ah, I would cry, cry and be too, or is there not aft

If you can re-select, I don't want to come back, I am sorry to go home to see your family, so take their loved ones, and doesn't want to go to work, are afraid to go back from work, inner struggles and rogue, wanted to cry, cry, or no change after all this, don't just let yourself better than you? I