求翻译：其实我很厌倦目前的生活方式,因为在5年前我找了个香港人做结婚,结果他吸毒,常常敲诈我,直到带他回去复查的那一天,他控制不住,又在外事科偷偷吸毒,所以我们被怀疑假结婚,虽然材料都已经补齐,但拖了一年还没有批给我身份证,目前我只能熬着,想不到好的办法.所以我只能接受目前的工作,我希望这样的日子快点结束,更希望有了身份以后,你可以带我去日本,我想孩子也可以跟我一起生活.这一切也许很渺茫,但无论多么失意,总有一种期待在冥冥中给我力量,生活多么无奈,总有一种期待指引我方向.是什么意思？

In fact, I am tired of the current way of life, because five years ago, I am looking for a Hong Kong people do get married, the results of his drug addiction, often to blackmail me, until you take him to go back and review the day, he could not, in Wai Shike secretly drugs, so we suspected sham marr

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Actually I am weary of very much present the life style, because I asked a Hong Kong person in 5 years ago to make the marriage, the result he took drugs, blackmailed me frequently, until led him to go back the reexamination that one day, he could not control, also took drugs secretly in the externa

Actually I is tired currently of lifestyle, because in 5 years Qian I found has a Hong Kong people do married, results he drug, often extortion I, until with he back review of that day, he control not, and in Foreign Affairs Branch secretly drug, so we is suspected fake married, although material ar