求翻译：在此后的日子里，马老师总是缭绕在我的心头，我多次想去找她或给她打电话，但羞、恨、悔多种情感交织在一起，使我不敢面对她甚至不敢听到她声音。是什么意思？

In the following days, Ma, always shrouded in my heart, I want to go several times to call her or to her, but shame, hate, regret a variety of emotions are intertwined, so I can not even face her can not hear her voice.

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In hereafter the day, Mr./Mrs. Ma always winds around in mine heart, I want to go many times to look for her or to telephone to her, but shames, hates, regret many kinds of emotions to interweave in the same place, causes me not to dare facing her even not to dare to hear her sound.

Here days after, teacher Ma was always filled in my mind I repeatedly go to her or call her but shy, hate, regret many emotions intertwined in so I couldn't face she can't even hear her voice it.

In the following days, Ma, always shrouded in my heart, I want to go several times to call her or to her, but shame, hate, regret a variety of emotions are intertwined, so I can not even face her can not hear her voice.