求翻译：我失去所有的力气，甚至想用最后一点的能力毁了自己。我不想睁开眼，微笑的过下去。我知道我的微笑背后，扯着伤痛。我只是想，宁愿我从未活过。我真的做不到这么淡然是什么意思？

I lose all the effort, or even want to ruin his last point of the ability. I do not want to open his eyes, smile and move on. I know that my smile behind inviting the pain. I just want to, rather I have never lived. I really can not do so lightly

I have lost all of the effort, and may even want to use the last point destroyed his ability. I do not want to opened his eyes, the smile too. I know that I am behind the smile, the pain involved. I just want to, and would rather I never live too. I really do not see this course

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I lost all my strength, even with the ability to finally destroyed themselves. I don't want to eyes, smile and go on. I know I'm behind the smile, tearing pain. I just wanted to, would rather I had never lived. I really do not see such tastes

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