求翻译：以为我能忘记，但流下的眼泪，明白自己还是控制不了，以为已经平静下来了，却发现还是不堪一击。只是一直在回避，一直让自己的思想麻木着，一旦回复知觉，竟然还是这么的痛。是什么意思？

That I could forget, but shed tears, to understand their own or can not control, think I have calmed down, but still vulnerable. Just been avoiding, has been let your mind numb with the once reply perception, even so the pain.

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Thought I can forget, but flows off the tear, understood oneself could not control, thought already was tranquil has gotten down, discovered actually collapsed at the first blow.Only is avoiding continuously, lets own thought numbly continuously, once reply consciousness, unexpectedly such pain.

Thought I could forget, but shed tears, understand that they cannot control, has calmed down, also was found to be vulnerable. Just avoid, keep his thoughts-numbing, once the reply perception, it is such a pain.