求翻译：我已经被现实打击的快要崩溃了,我要坚强起来是因为有你给我帮助,如果你对我的帮助和这样委屈自己,那么出于无奈和痛苦,我会决定拒绝你的帮助.我自己很难从困境中走出来,我想我将选择其他途径来生活的.是什么意思？

I've been real hit is about to collapse, and I want to be strong is because of you give me help, if you helped me and so wronged themselves, then out of frustration and pain, I decided to refuse your help. I difficult to get out of trouble, I think I will choose other ways of life.

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I already soon collapsed by the reality attack, I want to be strong was because has you to help for me, if you and put like this to my help oneself, then because it cannot be helped with the pain, I can decide rejects your help. I walk very difficultly from the difficult position, I thought I will c

I have been a reality hit is going to crash, I be strong because you help me, if you are new to my help and hurt itself, so only because one can do no better, and the pain, I will decide to refuse your help. I own is difficult to come out from the dilemma, I think I will choose other ways of life.

I have been a reality hit is going to crash, I be strong because you help me, if you are new to my help and hurt itself, so only because one can do no better, and the pain, I will decide to refuse your help. I own is difficult to come out from the dilemma, I think I will choose other ways of life.