求翻译：我发现在学习英语的过程中我总是很被动，我找不到动力。一方面是因为我的听力和口语都不好，所以我缺乏自信，在课堂上也表现的不积极，慢慢的我选择沉沦。还有一方面我觉得课文的内容太枯燥了，尽管老师总会穿插一些视频，但我还是不能好好融入。不过我觉得最主要的原因是因为我在课前没好好预习，也一直没有预习的习惯，所以上课一直跟不上老师的节奏，后来就干脆不听课了。是什么意思？

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