求翻译：总认为已经在努力改变自己，却无意发现自己欺骗了我，原来在别人眼里是那么的不堪，甚至不入流，却始终停留在自己的有限空间内。真是笑死人了。是什么意思？

Always have to change their view, did not attempt to find themselves deceived me, had the eyes of others is so unbearable, even mediocre, but always stay in their own limited space. It is ridiculous.

General believes it has in its efforts to change themselves, but have no intention to deceive me, originally found themselves in someone else's eyes were so unbearable, and it has not even into the stream, but it remained within their own limited space. It is really die laughing.

Always thought diligently was already changing oneself, had no intention to discover actually oneself has deceived me, originally in other human eye was such being unable to withstand, even unorthodox, throughout paused actually in own finite space.Really was smiles the human.

Always thought that has sought to change myself but has no intention of finding himself deceived me, in the eyes of others turned out to be so bad, not even to the stream, but stay within their limited space. Really laughing dead.

Always thought that has sought to change myself but has no intention of finding himself deceived me, in the eyes of others turned out to be so bad, not even to the stream, but stay within their limited space. Really laughing dead.