求翻译：当第一缕阳光撒进阳台，一夜无眠的我思维变得异常模糊，时光恍惚间竟然觉得历史的车轮好像在倒转。我不知道我现在这样做的结果意味着什么，但我能感觉到自己终归会在某天亲手将自己推入悬崖，然后笑着对自己说活该。我多么讨厌说谎话的自己。我不清楚自己所做的一切是在干什么，是挥霍么，挥霍自己所剩无几的青春，我一直都觉得自己不是个肤浅的人，难道我错了么。我还是那样的透明，所有的心思都被别人看得很穿。是什么意思？

When the first ray of sunlight scattered into the balcony, Yiyewumian I became very fuzzy thinking, time trance even feel like the wheel of history in reverse. I do not know what I am doing what the results mean, after all, but I feel that they will one day hand to push themselves into the cliff, th

When the first ray-terrace, a sleepless night I thinking becomes extremely vague, and time Mamu seems even think that the wheels of history in reverse. I do not know what I am doing so, what does it mean the results but I can feel that he will eventually would push themselves with their own hands on

When the first wisp sunlight scatters the balcony, night of non-dormancy my thought becomes exceptionally fuzzy, the time absent minded unexpectedly thought the historical wheel is probably reversing.I did not know I do this now the result meant any, but I can feel own will after all be able in some

When the first ray of sunshine in sub into the balcony, I thought a sleepless night become blurred, time trance feel of the wheel of history seems to turn back. I don't know what I now do the results mean, but I can feel myself after all will one day hand-pushed itself into the cliff, and then smile

When the first ray of sunshine in sub into the balcony, I thought a sleepless night become blurred, time trance feel of the wheel of history seems to turn back. I don't know what I now do the results mean, but I can feel myself after all will one day hand-pushed itself into the cliff, and then smile