求翻译：我所做的一切,我努力改变自己,都是为了你,但我现在知道,我最该做也早该做的事情...我爱你,因为爱你,就算你放荡不羁,说话又刻薄,可是我就是爱你,我不敢先说我爱你,我怕你以为这是场游戏,每天看着你们甜蜜,我装作毫不在意,知道吗,我心里是多么难受,我装乐观来掩饰我的悲伤,你不会明白,我多希望我知道如何放弃你,你好像是我私人的海洛因,有时我真的很想你,想到我心痛,想到我无法承受.有些东西,明明就在眼前,终究还是无法拥有,我多希望我知道如何放弃你,可是我爱你,却必须放弃你,也许,打一开始,你的未来中,就没有我,但是我仍然希望你幸福快乐,就算你不爱我.是什么意思？

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All I did, I tried to change their own, in order to you, but I know now, I do it as early as at the right thing to do ... I love you, love you, because even if you speak, dissolute, and the virulence is but I love you, I do not dare to say that I love you, I am afraid that you don't think this is a

Everything I do, I try to change yourself, is all about you, but I know now, I the best thing to do is also in early ... I love you, because love you, even you Bohemian, talk also mean, but I is love you, I dare not first said I