求翻译：我知道我不是你的第一个，但是我多么想当你的唯一一个。或许，就是爱这个字，让我死心，让我绝望，让我挣扎...但是我曾经爱过一个意想不到的陌生人，我不敢想，不敢想象，我爱上了。但是，我还是这么一句话，谁对我好几分，我都会以双倍奉还，但是谁对我的坏，我会让他痛不欲生...我现在什么都没有了，我不在意付出，只要能让我心安..我乐意以一切，却换取自己的虚荣，我就是要看到让我痛苦的人的痛苦。我要让这种人知道什么叫做痛不欲生是什么意思？

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I know that I am not your first, but how much I want to be when you're the only 11. It may be that love is the word, let me give up, let me to despair, let me struggle ... but I used to love the stranger an unexpected, and I do not dare to imagine, is not, I have loved. However, I still have a word

I know I'm not your first, but how I want to be your only one. Perhaps the word is love, let me give up, let me despair, let me struggle ... But I used to love an unexpected stranger,